Each one seems to have its own tune...but I can hear both at the same time, and they sound pretty amazing together. Just like any of the arts can be linked to philosophy, one is not less just because an expert on another does not understand one. And, who made the other an expert? Is it true that one who embraces more, clenches softer?
It is lovely though, to see how some artists are so mesmerized in their own creativity, that they can't see further from what it involves. I mean, artists are inspired by their own tastes, we can't enjoy all as much at the same time! Taste is such bitch...it can push worlds apart, or drag them in and out without one even noticing.
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Its been quite a long time since I last wrote...I was thinking about this tonight, and how it is not helping that for the last 4 months, I have felt nothing.
No pain, no love, no delusion, disappointment, excitement...
I mean, I haven't been expecting or waiting for anything. That kind of feeling, like being still water.
I started studying Philosophy in January after spending most of December in Spain, where, I think, was the last time I felt some kind of urge inside. I had a massive disappointment on one of the most, I considered to be, beautiful persons in my life...lets say, it was the final result of a sum of many messy bits I never wanted to see.
And so I came back to London, continued my life, met interesting people, had amazing moments, loved some girls, loved some boys...I can't say anything bad about these last 4 months! I just came back from Paris, a very good friend came to visit from Madrid, Im making some music with Pete and Will, my new band mates...fuck IM IN A BAND! :)
I styled for a shoot, and I'm preparing new shoots for the next few weeks...
I did an exhibition of my illustrations in 10gales gallery in east London...I even DJayed....
but, all those dreams I used to write about in my notebook...all those nights of angry writing and creative grief...seem to be gone :/
So since I have stopped doing this naturally and spontaneously for some reason, I'm going to try to push it to the surface voluntarily. So just like it used to be, everytime I'm sleepy and wondering about the next day, I'll sit down and take some time with these contradictions and addictions under my name.
♥ let this be a first.
